As much as it seems to be all lost, I learned to see God in every situation, even the one where the pain still insists on wanting to destroy the soul ... abandon everything and throw in the towel...
I am still impressed and sometimes even afraid of how I am getting used to suffering, sorrows and disappointments happens to be a constant, and I struggling just to silence the thought, and endure the moments, because I know that they are ... only moments ... in the end everything goes by...
How to see God in these situations? I do not know, I do not think there is a recipe ... just will ... and that will grow and it turns into faith ... in resignation.
On October 5, 2016 I received an email from a client and he said:
Rosa,
The reason for terminating the contract was because we are closing a new form of accounting management that includes financial, administrative and legal management with consultancy and audit incorporated, which brings us a savings of 3 contracts to 1 and facilitates management on our part.
We are very grateful for everything you, Eduardo and Conceição have done professionally and personally for .....
Big hug my friend
I think I opened this e-mail lying in my bed at ten o'clock ... I cried. I cry with everything (laughs) but there was ending a partnership of more than 12 years.
I just answered:
Okay my friend ... My heart is sad, but it will pass ...
Thanks for everything
Love you.
I finished my work. October balance sheet and emailed to the new accountant. Heart was at peace!
He wanted me to also send all my work to him ... that is, all the releases from January to October, and again I go against the world I decide to help, making available all my files, with the promise that they would only be copied the files related to this client's database.
I think that because we are a woman and a human the others think you are stupid ... silly, but one more time...big mistake.
I asked for a document signed by them and registered in the registry confirming that my requirement would be adhered to, because if I knew that the information of other clients had been copied, I would process them.
Months pass and nothing ... no response, no satisfaction.
In December 2017, still unable to close the balance of 2016, and disrupting the company's financial life, comes in contact as if nothing had happened, asking for help and talking about partnership and professional ethics... Just listening I thought, I'm listening to this really ???? Had the concept of partnership and professional ethics changed? He would have acted differently if it had been the same some time ago, and expected to close the year, but no, he did not want to ... thought he could go over everything and can not ... no one can ... and the answer came.
I did everything he needed, but I charged a price for which he did not want to pay ...
The owner of the company called me, we talked and I said, I'm not doing it for the money, that's not going to be my fault, my question is justice and I'll prove it, you just ask that I send you all my work and do not have to pay anything for it ... it's in your hands. My subject is with my colleague of profession ... only with him ... Make him understand that when we have character, personality and especially God, we do not need to arrest ourselves there are some concepts that in fact, we have no notion of what it means, , and the next time he will know respect and think twice before letting his greed and ambition speak louder.
My client's response that could even be harmed was ... no, you're completely right, he has to deal with the consequences ... and so it was!
What did my Father say at the end of everything? Just where my eye hit ... (Proverbs 16)
8 It's better to be honest and poor than to be dishonest and rich.
9 We make our own plans, but the Lord decides where we will go.
10 Rulers speak with authority and are never wrong.
11 The Lord watches to see if we are fair or if we cheat others.
12 Justice makes rulers powerful. They should hate evil 13and like honesty and truth.
14 An angry ruler can put you to death. So be wise! Don't make one angry.
15 When a ruler is happy and pleased with you, it's like refreshing rain, and you will live.
16 It's much better to be wise and sensible than to be rich.
17 God's people avoid evil ways, and they protect themselves by watching where they go.
Anyway, no matter how sad the actions of others may cause you ... Do not feed, leave nothing and no one take your light, your peace ... do not be afraid, do not answer, continue to keep love within you, trust , for the whole truth one day comes to light and with it justice.
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