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There are certainly no coincidence or luck, everything happens as it must happen, and without losing my humility from the beginning here I am once again confirming I'm not anything or anyone, all I got was given me by God.

Before returning to the subject of our friend and how Nadir helped me, I want to tell you one more work of God, my search for answers while strength to keep me alive was very large, but something drove me and told me I could not give up the fight and I also was not alone if I surrender myself to all sorrow and disappointment I felt, it would be the end of me ...

My life had to go on, I still had to keep the office running, after all were six employees who depended on It ... they depend on me.

With very high costs of transport for getting me to my job I saw that needed to change, but my window I looked Alfredo (car) .... trembled... trauma!  (deeply distressing)

I decided to ask the watchman of the building to teach me to drive. When I left my town I had purchased a Ford KA used, but only had time to take my  driver's license, because I moved to Salvador, and left It there, I thought I did not bring it, we already had one, and as I mentioned, we  did not not parted, where I was sure Edu as well, so he drove, it was convenient for me. Not to mention that right away took dick in half clutch, the city that I live today only has slopes (laughs), so best left quiet ... I thought.

But now I needed to do something because it could not afford the cost of the taxi, I needed to end.

On the appointed day, a Sunday, we took the car in the morning (I and the watchman) and went to a more quiet neighborhood, getting there sat in the driver's seat and to summarize brought the car home.

Finally, remember the University? As I entered? Overcome my fears, again it was not my merit.

I started driving to work, and every day I entered the car, I invited my father asking, will you come with me? I can not do it alone ...

Put a song that spoke of Him and I,  actually have a CD, I won the wife of an employee, if I'm not mistaken has more than 300 songs that speak of us, always wondered, like this father? I think we heard more together was resurrected me, says the following:

Master I need a miracle

Transformed my life, my state

Long time I did not see the light of day

They are trying to bury my joy

Trying to see my dreams canceled

Lazarus heard Your voice, when the stone removed

After four days he revived

Master there is none that can do

What only your name has all power

I need as much of a miracle

Remove my stone, calls me by name

Change my story, revives my dreams

Transformed my life, makes me a miracle

Touch me at that time, called me out

Resurrects me

You are life itself, the strength in me

You are the Son of God, Who exalted me to win

Lord of everything in me, as I hear your voice

Calling me to live, a history of power!

How many times I left the office and could not hold back the tears, I was afraid that the traffic officers stopped me and told me that I was not able to drive.

The thing was so complicated that even panic attacks I had, I lacked air ...

It was a day this agony, fell to my knees and cried, my Father in the name of your son Jesus help me .... I ask forgiveness for everything I've done, even by what I do not remember, but it takes me this agony. Right now like a movie in my head it went something that happened to me in the past ... and I remembered .... and said, remembered Father! Forgive me, at that moment I felt something not yet felt ... and I was overcome by such a great peace ...

I had so many times, I have and I still have them in the future, because even if we have faith, we are human, we are subject to them, the important thing is we do not get lost in them.

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Com certeza não existe coincidências ou sorte, tudo acontece como tem que acontecer, e sem perder a minha humildade do inicio eis me aqui mais uma vez confirmando, não sou nada nem ninguém, tudo o que consegui foi a mim dado por Deus.

Antes de voltar ao assunto do nosso amigo e como a Nadir me ajudou, quero contar mais uma obra de Deus,  a minha busca por respostas e ao mesmo tempo forças para me manter viva era muito grande, mas algo me impulsionava e me dizia que eu não podia desistir de lutar e que eu também não estava só, se eu me entregasse a toda  tristeza e decepção que sentia, seria o meu fim...

A minha vida tinha que continuar, eu ainda tinha o escritório para manter funcionando, afinal de contas eram seis funcionários que dependiam dele... dependem de mim.

Com despesas muito altas com o transporte para me locomover até o meu trabalho vi que precisava mudar, mas da minha janela eu olhava o  Alfredo (carro) .... tremia, trauma!

Resolvi pedir ao vigia do prédio que me ensinasse a dirigir. Quando saí da minha cidade eu havia comprado um, Ford KA usado, mas só deu tempo tirar a carteira, pois vim morar em Salvador, e o deixei lá, achei que não precisava trazê-lo, já tínhamos um, e como mencionei, não desgrudávamos, aonde eu estava com certeza o Edu também, assim ele dirigia, aquilo era cômodo pra mim. Sem contar que logo de cara levei pau na meia embreagem, a cidade que hoje moro só tem ladeiras (risos), então, melhor deixar quieto... pensei.

Mas agora eu precisava fazer algo, pois não tinha como bancar as despesas com o táxi, aquilo precisava acabar.

No dia combinado um domingo, pegamos o carro pela manhã (eu e o vigia) e fomos para um bairro mais tranquilo, chegando lá sentei no banco do motorista e para resumir trouxe o carro para casa. 

Enfim, lembram da Universidade?  Como entrei? Vencer os meus medos, de novo não foi um mérito meu.

Passei a ir trabalhar dirigindo, e todos os dias que eu entrava no carro, eu convidava meu Pai perguntando, quer vir comigo? eu não sei fazer isso sozinha...
Colocava uma música que falava Dele e de mim, na verdade tenho um CD, ganhei da esposa de um funcionário, se não me engano tem mais de 300 músicas que falam de nós dois, sempre perguntava, gosta dessa Pai? Acho que a que mais ouvíamos juntos era ressuscita-me, ela diz o seguinte:

Mestre eu preciso de um milagre
Transforma minha vida, meu estado
Faz tempo que eu não vejo a luz do dia
Estão tentando sepultar minha alegria
Tentando ver meus sonhos cancelados
Lázaro ouviu a Sua voz, quando aquela pedra removeu
Depois de quatro dias ele reviveu
Mestre não há outro que possa fazer
Aquilo que só o Teu nome tem todo poder
Eu preciso tanto de um milagre
Remove minha pedra, me chama pelo nome
Muda minha história, ressuscita os meus sonhos
Transforma minha vida, me faz um milagre
Me toca nessa hora, me chama para fora
Ressuscita-me
Tu és a própria vida, a força que há em mim
Tu és o Filho de Deus, Que me ergues pra vencer
Senhor de tudo em mim, já ouço a Tua voz
Me chamando pra viver, uma história de poder!

Quantas vezes saí do escritório e não conseguia segurar as lágrimas, tinha medo que os agentes de trânsito me parassem e me dissessem que eu não tinha condições de dirigir. 

A coisa estava tão complicada que até síndrome do pânico eu tive, me faltava o ar...
Foi um dia que nesta agonia, caí de joelhos e clamei, meu Pai, em nome do teu filho Jesus me ajuda.... te peço perdão por tudo que fiz, até por aquilo que não lembro, mas me tira essa agonia. Neste exato momento como um filme passou em minha cabeça algo que me aconteceu no passado... e eu lembrei.... e disse: Lembrei Pai! Me perdoa, naquele momento eu senti algo que ainda não havia sentido... e fui tomada por uma paz tão grande...

Tive vários momentos assim, tenho e posso ainda tê-los no futuro, pois por mais fé que tenhamos, somos humanos, estamos sujeitos a eles, o importante é a gente não se perder neles.

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This page took a while to get out, I had some drafts, but many doubts, and once again, I calm down, I am still waiting for my Father to say what to do ...

My fear not to make me understand makes me scared, as I said I have no intimacy with the words, that's when I feel His presence saying to my heart ... Yes daughter, calms down and I'll do the rest.

And It is this trust and faith that I continue ...

For to understand that I do not seek help in religion, not in doctrines, see how I was open to receive my God ...

I do not usually go out, I always say, I have in my house all I need, already spend a lot of time away from It. But every so often happens to a friend make a call and I end up accepting. On this day, I had lunch at a restaurant close to home when the phone got was full of messages, it was my sister, worried, thinking that something had happened I returned the call, and she told me: Ró, Dona Nadir asked if I had a sister away from home, and it was to warn her not to accept the invitation, I only thought of you ... And I smiled saying just got here and I know what it is, (not want to go into details here) but who is even Nadir? I asked. She told me that she met this lady when it was returning to São Paulo, after a visit that was to Her daughter in Alagoas, the money was gone and she and her husband were sleeping in the street. When my sister welcomed them with friends and got tickets so they could go home from this day forward, they talked, my sister came to give a cell for her to not lose touch.

The Nadir our new character is blind, she worked in circus for a long time as a dancer and her husband was clown. She felt strong headaches and did not care much, so she told me, was when She found out,  she was diabetic and the disease made her blind. The husband also with health problems had heart attack and lost the movements of the left side of the body, also designer, painted pictures, signs on fenders trucks, making these works made a living, being limited to the loss of movement ... They survived on the minimum wage, social security assistance disease.

Talking to Nadir, I could see that in fact there was an exchange, because the spiritual vision of this woman was impressive.

We come to tell every day, she made prayers and told me things that I can not explain how she knew. She is evangelical, little study, but in a peculiar way preached as never seen anyone do.

Again God works in my own way, giving me what I needed, His word because it was from there that I began to be intimate with the Bible and use it in my life everyday.

Many doubts, many questions, unfortunately for attachment to religions and doctrines people sometimes fall away from the truth, seek in others (humans beings) with their definitions and concepts answers that only our Father can give us, and away one of the other , grieving Him, because we are one.

Become routine daily links to Nadir, spoke in God, sometimes we nearly four hours talking, I read the Bible to her, and she loved to hear me tell my conversations with God, something like this: Father ... Father , Are You sad to me? why am I not feeling your presence today? What did I do? Father, do you love me? I love You! (Laughs) And that was repeated to get to sleep ... I slept only an hour, imagine how much I talked to God ... and talk to...

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Essa página demorou um pouco pra sair, eu tinha alguns rascunhos, mas muitas dúvidas,     e mais uma vez, me acalmo, fico quieta esperando meu Pai dizer o que fazer...

Meu medo de não me fazer entender me deixa assustada, como disse não tenho nenhuma intimidade com as palavras, aí é quando sinto a presença Dele dizendo ao meu coração... Sim filha, se acalma e eu farei o resto.
E é nessa confiança e fé que eu continuo...
Para vocês entenderem que não fui buscar ajuda em religião,  nem em doutrinas, vejam como eu estava aberta a receber meu Deus...
Não costumo sair, sempre digo, tenho em minha casa tudo o que preciso, já passo muito tempo longe dela. Mas de vez em quando acontece de uma amiga fazer um convite e eu acabar aceitando. Neste dia, fui almoçar em um restaurante perto de casa, quando cheguei o celular estava cheio de mensagens, era a minha irmã, preocupada, achando que algo havia acontecido retornei a ligação, e ela me disse: Ró, Dona Nadir perguntou se eu tinha uma irmã longe de casa, e que era pra avisar a ela que não aceitasse o convite, eu só pensei em você ...E  eu sorri dizendo acabei de chegar e sei do que se trata, ( não quero entrar aqui em detalhes) mas quem é mesmo a Nadir? Perguntei. Ela me explicou que conheceu essa senhora quando a mesma estava voltando para São Paulo, depois de uma visita que foi fazer a filha em Alagoas, o dinheiro havia acabado e estava ela e o marido dormindo na rua. Quando a minha irmã os acolheu e conseguiu com amigos passagens para que pudessem voltar para casa, deste dia em diante, elas conversavam, minha irmã chegou a dar um celular pra ela, para não perder o contato.
A Nadir nossa nova personagem, é cega, trabalhou em circo durante muito tempo como dançarina e seu marido era palhaço. Sentia fortes dores de cabeça e não dava muita importância, assim ela me contou, foi quando descobriu que estava com diabetes e a doença a fez perder a visão. O marido também com problemas de saúde teve infarto e perdeu os movimentos do lado esquerdo do corpo, também desenhista, pintava quadros, letreiros em para-lamas de caminhões, fazendo estes trabalhos ganhava a vida, ficando limitado com a perca dos movimentos... Sobreviviam com um salário mínimo, auxilio doença da previdência social.
Conversando com a Nadir,  pude notar que na verdade houve uma troca, pois a visão espiritual dessa mulher era impressionante. 
Passamos a nos falar todos os dias, ela fazia orações e me contava coisas que não tenho como explicar como ela sabia. Ela é evangélica, pouco estudo, mas de uma forma peculiar pregava como nunca vi ninguém fazer. 
Mais uma vez Deus age a sua maneira, me dando o que eu precisava, a sua palavra, pois foi a partir dai que comecei a ter intimidade com a Bíblia e a usa-la no meu dia a dia.
Muitas dúvidas, muitas perguntas, infelizmente por apego a religiões e doutrinas as pessoas as vezes se distanciam da verdade, buscam em outros (seres humanos) com suas definições e conceitos respostas que só o nosso Pai pode nos dar, e se afastam um dos outros, entristecendo Ele, pois somos um.
Virou rotina as ligações diárias para a Nadir, falávamos em Deus, por vezes ficamos quase quatro horas conversando, eu lia a Bíblia pra ela, e ela adorava ouvir eu contar as minhas conversas com Deus, mais ou menos assim: Pai... Pai, tá triste comigo? por que não estou sentindo sua presença hoje? o que fiz? Pai, você me ama?  Eu te amo! ( risos) E isso era repetido até conseguir dormir... eu dormia apenas uma hora, imagina o quanto eu conversava com Deus... e converso...

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Serei sonho na tua realidade

Obrigada por teu carinho
Eu estava só e vagando
Tens sido mais que amigo
Não sei... mas acho que estou te amando.

Seremos duas crianças...
Tu és a alma que tanto procurei
Juntos seremos apenas um
Que bom que te encontrei

Sonhador como eu
Temos o mesmo objetivo
Vem, caminha ao meu lado
Prometo ser teu abrigo

Transformou minha escuridão em Luz
Dos meus sonhos já faz parte
Tão rápido aconteceu
Fez do meu drama... uma bela arte

A ti agora eu me entrego
Sem segredos, sem limites
Me aceitas como tua mulher?
Quero te tocar... permites?

Serei sonho na tua realidade
Realizarei teus desejos
E se assim quiseres
Por toda uma eternidade...

Brinda comigo a vida
Esse novo.... sentir
Vem ser meu amor
O melhor está por vir

Rosa Soares

A boca fala do que o coração está cheio!

Mateus 12

33 — Vocês só poderão ter frutas boas se tiverem uma árvore boa. Mas, se tiverem uma árvore que não presta, vocês terão frutas que não prestam. Porque é pela qualidade das frutas que sabemos se uma árvore é boa ou não presta. 34 Ninhada de cobras venenosas! Como é que vocês podem dizer coisas boas se são maus? Pois a boca fala do que o coração está cheio. 35 A pessoa boa tira o bem do seu depósito de coisas boas, e a pessoa má tira o mal do seu depósito de coisas más.

36 — Eu afirmo a vocês que, no Dia do Juízo, cada pessoa vai prestar contas de toda palavra inútil que falou. 37 Porque as suas palavras vão servir para julgar se você é inocente ou culpado.

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I remembered that some time after losing my husband, one client tried to talk to me without being able to, had canceled his mobile number, and it was to where she was calling. On the day we spoke her very nervous and worried about me said: You are thinking of doing bullshit, Edu does not leave me alone, asking me to help him, I want to talk to you today ...

I hung up and waited. I could not work, I sit in the building stairs when I heard the elevator door open, she was heading toward my room, I called her, sat next to me and told me what was happening, it felt like we were living together, for described with such rich detail exactly what I was living, when I came home and found myself alone.

I had no denying, something was happening there, she was talking to me and to him, that was on their side her. I remember his words using her mouth ... "Forgive me, I was selfishly thinking only me, alone in my sickness and in my pain, I left you with many problems of which I could have solved ... I never imagined you come to the end, because I'm sure that if it were another person, would have abandoned me like she was with the results of my medical exams in her hands, you were a warrior, stood by me until the last moment and now I ask you forgiveness, you are surrounded by false people, but do not give up, do not leave the office, remember what I always said, the office has always been you, I was just a pin ... (just as talked with me). You need to follow your life, but if you keep doing what is and is abusing this way, we will not meet again ... "

I heard every word, it seemed he was in front of me.

Then my friend said, he felt very breathless, still felt the body aches, but he was very worried about me.

Without any conditions to return to work I asked her to give me a ride home, we went out and talked a lot, I had so many questions.

And so the days passed and my contact with her was little, did not want to bother her with my concern, but one does not get out of my head, he was still suffering ...

In an evening of Tuesday, I sat down with the boys, Frederico and Ben-hur, and started talking ... Benhê, you're here are not you? You need to follow, remember when You told me what You felt in the lap of Jesus? Now I beg you, look at this light and follow, He expects you at the end of it ... It is quiet, I'll be fine, but for me it is important that you are well.

Wednesday in the morning the phone rings, It was my friend and said, I saw ... saw what? I asked her. I saw last time that Edu grabbed the arm of a fat lady and said, we can go, She is ready ...

The pain seemed to feel that I was cremating him again, and this time was no more ashes to keep me company.

With all these memories, I seek help in the spiritual world, a spiritual center, and to get there I was treated with so much love, so lovingly. The treat litter actually lay and a person with the laying on of hands is prayer and in exit, take water powered home. Only that. At the end of treatment, six sessions, another person who accompanies us talk to us. I will not lie I was sad when the treatment was over, I felt good as It, and she told me, calm down, do not want to put the cart before the oxen, everything has its time and you have a very great protection, and this It will pass ... While many have a guardian angel, you have three and is very well monitored. I left with this thought, everything will pass.

I knew everything I felt, sadness and disappointment I experienced were not going to beat me, because I always had humility, but in the face of so much suffering I bowed to my Father and asked Him: do not abandon me because without you I do not I will endure ...

It felt like I was living in hell, I think at times I came down, knock on the door and come back ...

Things were happening and understand what he meant by falsehood, for God was showing me each of them, as shown until today.

I still have a lot to talk about our Father, before the end of this page, I want to make it clear that I write here has nothing to do with religion, nor doctrines. I do not deny it was a period of many more questions on my part, many doubts and conflicts, but be assured that all responses I found in the Bible, because it was one of my options and talked with Him, I will answer your my FATHER and not of mouth of a man.