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Start the day and the war with my computer, already in the office trying to catch up and it takes on a life of its own, I almost threw my computer out of the window last week... But I'll make it understand that who's in charge here is me ...

My blog continues to help many people not give up, and my goal is this, to finish a story that was not started by me and to show that we are not alone. Since I am just like everyone else, I have no gift, nothing special, I feel on the skin and I often have to read what I write over and over again, this happens when the pain becomes unbearable, leading us almost to panic.

This page will be long ...

I always talk to God that I do not want to return, if reincarnation exists, I love computer science and I can work up there, maybe I count souls, but He does not bring me back here. Want to know ... do not do that, the feeling I have is that what I could pay in light installments, are being charged all at once ... (laughs) Joking, I have no idea how this works.

I kept the faith, spent these days meditating, trying to calm my soul, talking to God, and my help arrives. I told my nephew Matheus everything that was happening, he gave me the contact of a person, I called and after a long conversation, I sent all the exams and recipes for him to analyze, I added him in whatsapp and desperately sent a message asking, Would  You take care of him for me? it took a while and suddenly the answer comes, yes, I take care ... I can not type anymore ... Matheus seeing my situation says: "I'm going to Salvador now to get him", and that way happened last night Fred had already been fed because he had a deep anemia, his tongue was white, I knew that if I did not do something, he would die in front of me. With him at home, I would come and go, but I could not stay close to him for a long time, my computer I did not want to connect anymore, Fred could stop breathing in front of me.

Changing the subject, this week I was surprised with a comment on the page of the Guerreiras on Facebook, just below a video I made with the robber, Marcelo Arantes Ramos, see it:

Miro da Silveira Unfortunately, he is my brother.

The Warriors How?

Miro da Silveira What is he doing so serious? I only discovered through some comments and videos

Miro da Silveira Can you explain?

The Warriors He's been beaten by women ... He says he's a journalist, he's persecuted, he's got cancer, he's starving ... anyway, many of those victims contacted me, and the worst he does not stop, , open process, bailiff does not find it. The São Paulo victim has also filed a lawsuit against him ... forgive me, he's a stalking psychopath. Forgive me.

Miro da Silveira Quiet, I did not know He would go that far, but He was always 171, none of the brothers talk to him about various family disappointments

Miro da Silveira But he has always been very intelligent, articulate and influential, but he has not been able to direct to good things, I am with our mother hospitalized and in total abandonment by him and my other brother, but if he was wrong he should be punished

Miro da Silveira I do not know why but my name is going wrong for you

Miro da Silveira If we do not learn in love we learn in pain,  Hugs

The Warriors Thank you angel! May God bless you and kiss your mother ... may Jesus carry you both in His lap ... You are not alone ... Kisses

Miro da Silveira Yeah

Miro da Silveira Can you send me the video again?

Miro da Silveira Unfortunately it's my brother

The Warriors yes, I have some problems but as soon as I can I will post them all again, ah we need to do a paternity exam, one of the victims has a daughter of him, we know he will not give anything, but we want him in jail and this will be the way, how can you help us?

The Warriors today are more than 45 women who have already looked for me, even outside Brazil, I need to stop this monster ... it's a matter of justice ... between me and God!

I only have to wait now ...

Many other feelings ... but these do not want to comment here, I think I should not. I only know that I must take the reins of my life, I feel lost, confused and very afraid.

Now that the hurricane is passing, I need to see how to handle it all and put things in their proper place.

I open the bible ... I read:

Song of Songs 3

Beautiful Dreams

She Speaks:

1 While in bed at night, I reached for the one I love with heart and soul.

I looked for him, but he wasn't there.

2 So I searched through the town for the one I love.

I looked on every street, but he wasn't there.

3 I even asked the guards patrolling the town, “Have you seen the one I love so much?”

4 Right after that, I found him.

I held him and would not let go until I had taken him to the home of my mother.

5 Young women of Jerusalem, promise me by the power of deer and gazelles, never to awaken love before it is ready.

Of course, that did not help me ...

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Fred is still hospitalized, we always look for answers to our questions and for me this is being the most difficult. Why does an innocent being have to go through this suffering?

Yesterday I was talking to a friend, and he told me just that:

"God has left the building a long time ago" and then "There is no God ... Rose ... only, at best, gods ... and even these are how adults are for children"

This person for me is beautiful, and as I talked to him, you are one of the most beautiful souls I have met and You may even think You are not, but your light will never cease to shine, even if to you ... dazzled. And that's exactly how I see Him.

I thought so much of what he told me, sure enough it was a great pain that led him to believe in those lines written by him, and my Father knows that. In a way these words moved me ... and I feel my faith shaken once more ...

This morning a great emptiness took over me, and the question was another, how am I going to continue now? And the voice decides to break the silence ... Open the bible! And that's what I did:

2 Listen, O heavens, pay attention, O earth, for the Lord God has spoken!

He said, "I raised children and cared for them, but they rebelled against me.

3 The ox knows its owner, and the donkey knows where the owner puts the food for him, but my people know nothing, the people of Israel do not understand anything. "

No ... We do not understand ...

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Fred ainda está internado, nós sempre procuramos respostas para as nossas perguntas e pra mim esta está sendo a mais difícil. Por que um ser inocente tem que passar por esse sofrimento? 

Ontem eu estava conversando com um amigo, e ele me disse exatamente isso: 

"God has left the building a long time ago" e em seguida "Não há Deus... Rosa...apenas, na melhor das hipóteses , deuses... e mesmo esses são como os adultos são para as crianças"

Essa pessoa pra mim é linda, e como falei com ele, você é uma das almas mais lindas que encontrei e pode até pensar que não, mas a tua luz nunca vai deixar de brilhar, mesmo que pra você... ofuscada. E é exatamente assim que o vejo.

Eu pensei tanto no que ele me disse, com certeza foi uma grande dor que o levou a acreditar naquelas linhas escritas por ele, e o meu Pai sabe disso. De uma certa forma essas palavras mexeram comigo... e eu senti a minha fé abalada mais uma vez...

Hoje pela manhã um grande vazio tomou conta de mim, e a pergunta foi outra, como vou continuar agora? E a voz resolve quebrar o silêncio... Abra a bíblia! e foi o que fiz:

2 Escutem, ó céus, preste atenção, ó terra, pois o Senhor Deus falou!

Ele disse: “Criei filhos e cuidei deles, mas eles se revoltaram contra mim.

3 O boi conhece o seu dono, e o jumento sabe onde o dono põe o alimento para ele, mas o meu povo não sabe nada, o povo de Israel não entende coisa nenhuma.”

Não... Nós não entendemos...

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Sometimes I have a strong feeling that my time here is running out.

The only thing in the world that fills my eyes today is the love, I no longer see grace in anything else, and for this love I suffer ...

I remember the day I sat on the floor, I held a glass of coffee in one hand and the other a cigarette in front of the emergency room of the hospital that Eduardo was hospitalized and asked God, where is his love that so many preach, his son is there suffering, I was screaming, are you holding him here because of me? can take him, because I can not take so much suffering, it happened on Tuesday and Wednesday morning when I went to visit him, he was not anymore ... countless times this scene goes through my head.

Today, with what is happening with Frederico, I ask God to pass on what he feels for me, or to take him, I have no more strength to live this situation. I can not feed myself, sleep ... and life does not stop or I can not stop.

Monday I arrived home with Benhur, because he has gone to the office with me, the sadness in his eyes is great, I was so tired, I took care of him, I took a shower and unable to eat I lay, I felt my body tremble, I think I fainted, I woke up at 9:30 with the cell phone ringing ... and then I saw the sun rise ...

Yesterday with Frederico at home, more pain and suffering, and one more night unable to sleep ... I left a person with him and here I am, I affirm, I can not stop ... I need to see what to do, it's a fact, I do not I can take more.

I am sure that my body is my cross ....

Many preach that Jesus as a lamb took all the sins of the world ... This is not true ... He came to tell us through all his suffering, I endured and I won, you will also win. So it is, so it will be ...

I need to continue ... In the certainty that I am not of this world, I do not give up God, I have made my choice, and here I ask, increase my faith Father and do your will in my life!

The smile continues on my face ... mixed with tears ... I repeat: I am what I feel!

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Às vezes tenho uma forte sensação que o meu tempo por aqui está esgotando.

A única coisa hoje no mundo que me enche os olhos é o amor,  já não vejo graça em mais nada, e por esse amor padeço...
Recordo o dia em que sentei no chão, segurava um copo com café em uma mão e na outra um cigarro,  na frente do pronto socorro do hospital que o Eduardo estava internado e perguntei a Deus, cadê o seu amor que tantos pregam, seu filho está lá sofrendo, eu gritava, está segurando ele aqui por minha causa? pode levar, pois já não aguento mais tanto sofrimento, isso aconteceu na terça feira e na quarta feira pela manhã quando o fui visitar, ele não estava mais... incontáveis vezes esta cena passa em minha cabeça.
Hoje, com o que está acontecendo com o Frederico, peço a Deus que passe o que ele sente para mim, ou o leve, eu não tenho mais forças para viver essa situação. Não estou conseguindo me alimentar, dormir... e a vida não para ou melhor eu não posso parar.
Segunda feira cheguei em casa com o Benhur, pois ele tem ido para o escritório comigo, a tristeza nos olhos dele é grande, eu estava tão cansada, cuidei dele, tomei um banho e sem conseguir comer deitei, eu sentia o meu corpo tremer, acho que desmaiei, acordei às 21:30 com o celular tocando... e daí vi o sol nascer...
Ontem com o Frederico em casa, mais dor e sofrimento, e mais uma noite sem conseguir dormir... Deixei uma pessoa com ele e aqui estou, afirmo, não posso parar...Preciso ver o que fazer, é fato, eu não aguento mais.
Tenho certeza que o meu corpo é a minha cruz....
Muitos pregam que Jesus como um cordeiro levou todos os pecados do mundo... Isso não é verdade... Ele veio para nos dizer através de todo o seu sofrimento, eu aguentei, eu suportei e venci, você também vencerá. Assim é, assim será...
Preciso continuar...  Na certeza que não sou desse mundo, eu não abro mão de Deus, eu fiz a minha escolha, e aqui peço, aumenta a minha fé Pai e faça a sua vontade em minha vida!
O sorriso continua em meu rosto...  misturado a lágrimas... repito: sou o que sinto!

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Our human glory disappears, and, like animals, we die

Don't Depend on Wealth

1 Everyone on this earth, now listen to what I say!

2 Listen, no matter who you are, rich or poor.

3 I speak words of wisdom, and my thoughts make sense.

4 I have in mind a mystery that I will explain while playing my harp.

5 Why should I be afraid in times of trouble, when I am surrounded by vicious enemies?

6 They trust in their riches and brag about all their wealth.

7 You cannot buy back your life or pay off God!

8 It costs far too much to buy back your life.

You can never pay God enough 9 to stay alive forever and safe from death.

10 We see that wise people die, and so do stupid fools.

Then their money is left for someone else.

11 The grave will be their home forever and ever, although they once had land of their own.

12 Our human glory disappears, and, like animals, we die.

13 Here is what happens to fools and to those who trust  the words of fools:49.13 and to those … fools: One possible meaning for the difficult Hebrew text.

14 They are like sheep with death as their shepherd, leading them to the grave.

In the morning God's people

will walk all over them, as their bodies lie rotting in their home, the grave.

15 But God will rescue me from the power of death.

16 Don't let it bother you when others get rich and live in luxury.

17 Soon they will die and all their wealth will be left behind.

18 We humans are praised when we do well, and all of us are glad to be alive.

19 But we each will go down to our ancestors, never again to see the light of day.

20 Our human glory disappears, and, like animals, we die.

O ser humano, por mais importante que seja, não pode escapar da morte; como os animais morrem, ele também morre.

Ninguém escapa da morte

Salmo do grupo de Corá. Ao regente do coro.

1 Povos, escutem bem isto! Ouçam, todos os moradores do mundo, 2 tanto os poderosos como os humildes, tanto os ricos como os pobres!

3 Os meus pensamentos serão claros; falarei palavras de sabedoria.

4 Vou dar atenção aos provérbios e, enquanto toco a minha lira, vou explicá-los.

5 Eu não sinto medo nas horas de perigo, quando os meus inimigos me cercam.

6 Esses perversos confiam nas suas riquezas e se orgulham das suas grandes fortunas.

7 Mas ninguém pode salvar a si mesmo, nem pagar a Deus o preço da sua vida, 8 pois não há dinheiro que pague a vida de alguém.

Por mais dinheiro que uma pessoa tenha, 9 isso não garante que ela nunca vá morrer, que ela vá viver para sempre.

10 Todo mundo vê que até os sábios morrem, e morrem também os tolos e os ignorantes.

E todos deixam as suas riquezas para os outros.

11 As suas sepulturas são os seus lares perpétuos, onde eles ficam para sempre, ainda que tenham possuído muitas terras.

12 O ser humano, por mais importante que seja, não pode escapar da morte; como os animais morrem, ele também morre.

13 Reparem no que acontece com os que confiam em si mesmos; vejam o fim daqueles que estão satisfeitos com as suas riquezas.

14 O pastor deles — a morte — os leva, e eles são condenados a morrer como se fossem ovelhas.

De manhã, as pessoas corretas os vencerão; os corpos deles apodrecerão na sepultura, longe dos seus lares.

15 Porém Deus me livrará do poder da morte, pois ele me receberá.

16 Não se preocupem quando alguém fica rico, e a sua riqueza aumenta cada vez mais.

17 Pois, quando morrer, ele não poderá levar nada; a sua riqueza não irá com ele para a sepultura.

18 Ainda que esteja contente com a sua vida e seja elogiado por ter sucesso, 19 ele, quando morrer, vai reunir-se com os seus antepassados no lugar onde a escuridão dura para sempre.

20 O ser humano, por mais importante que seja, não pode escapar da morte; como os animais morrem, ele também morre.