sábado, 10 de outubro de 2015

The Invisible World of Women - Page 9

This page took a while to get out, I had some drafts, but many doubts, and once again, I calm down, I am still waiting for my Father to say what to do ...
My fear not to make me understand makes me scared, as I said I have no intimacy with the words, that's when I feel His presence saying to my heart ... Yes daughter, calms down and I'll do the rest.
And It is this trust and faith that I continue ...
For to understand that I do not seek help in religion, not in doctrines, see how I was open to receive my God ...
I do not usually go out, I always say, I have in my house all I need, already spend a lot of time away from It. But every so often happens to a friend make a call and I end up accepting. On this day, I had lunch at a restaurant close to home when the phone got was full of messages, it was my sister, worried, thinking that something had happened I returned the call, and she told me: Ró, Dona Nadir asked if I had a sister away from home, and it was to warn her not to accept the invitation, I only thought of you ... And I smiled saying just got here and I know what it is, (not want to go into details here) but who is even Nadir? I asked. She told me that she met this lady when it was returning to São Paulo, after a visit that was to Her daughter in Alagoas, the money was gone and she and her husband were sleeping in the street. When my sister welcomed them with friends and got tickets so they could go home from this day forward, they talked, my sister came to give a cell for her to not lose touch.
The Nadir our new character is blind, she worked in circus for a long time as a dancer and her husband was clown. She felt strong headaches and did not care much, so she told me, was when She found out,  she was diabetic and the disease made her blind. The husband also with health problems had heart attack and lost the movements of the left side of the body, also designer, painted pictures, signs on fenders trucks, making these works made a living, being limited to the loss of movement ... They survived on the minimum wage, social security assistance disease.
Talking to Nadir, I could see that in fact there was an exchange, because the spiritual vision of this woman was impressive.
We come to tell every day, she made prayers and told me things that I can not explain how she knew. She is evangelical, little study, but in a peculiar way preached as never seen anyone do.
Again God works in my own way, giving me what I needed, His word because it was from there that I began to be intimate with the Bible and use it in my life everyday.
Many doubts, many questions, unfortunately for attachment to religions and doctrines people sometimes fall away from the truth, seek in others (humans beings) with their definitions and concepts answers that only our Father can give us, and away one of the other , grieving Him, because we are one.
Become routine daily links to Nadir, spoke in God, sometimes we nearly four hours talking, I read the Bible to her, and she loved to hear me tell my conversations with God, something like this: Father ... Father , Are You sad to me? why am I not feeling your presence today? What did I do? Father, do you love me? I love You! (Laughs) And that was repeated to get to sleep ... I slept only an hour, imagine how much I talked to God ... and talk to...