sábado, 8 de outubro de 2016

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Eleventh day - I read Psalm 5

For the director of music. For pipes. A psalm of David.

1 Listen to my words, Lord, consider my lament.
2 Hear my cry for help, my King and my God, for to you I pray.
3 In the morning, Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait expectantly. 
4 For you are not a God who is pleased with wickedness; with you, evil people are not welcome.
5 The arrogant cannot stand in your presence. You hate all who do wrong; 6 you destroy those who tell lies. The bloodthirsty and deceitfulyou, Lord, detest.
7 But I, by your great love, can come into your house; in reverence I bow down toward your holy temple.
8 Lead me, Lord, in your righteousness because of my enemies— make your way straight before me.
9 Not a word from their mouth can be trusted; their heart is filled with malice.
Their throat is an open grave;  with their tongues they tell lies.
10 Declare them guilty, O God! Let their intrigues be their downfall.
Banish them for their many sins, for they have rebelled against you.
11 But let all who take refuge in you be glad;  let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them, that those who love your name may rejoice in you.
12 Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous; you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

Thirteenth day - I wake up with the thought of a person, the feeling I had is that I had spent all night talking to him, I can not say his name, I must respect his feelings, because I believe that I feel is something only mine ... which is very sad, but twice I opened the Bible and my thought was taken for him, it happens ... my eyes can only see this line ... Song of Songs 7:10

I belong to my beloved, and his desire is for me.

I should have been happy, but I just thought, would have to live with this feeling? My effort to kill him will be in vain? That is, I will die alone then.
Day July 19, 2016 - already passed seventeen days of fasting, I said to my friend, what he was doing and how I have sought God, I said without going into details, she asked me to pray the rosary and asked the Virgin Mary give me discernment, I only heard, at home the mouth of God tells me, again through the book Wisdom - Chapter 13: 10-19
You will not believe, but now I see it was the same text I read on Sunday when I returned from Mass ... My God !!! I opened the Bible in the same place ... Jesus, the Bible I changed, I gained a new Bible, a gift, and I thought, It's not addicted ... I will not deny that this passed by my head.
I understood Father, I will keep my Mary in my heart, She will be an example woman for me to follow, many merits to be chosen ... ... many to be the mother of your child, but there is only one way to get to you ... Jesus Christ!
I believe my fasting did not happen the way I thought ... I do not know actually what I expected to happen, but I asked for wisdom and in a way I was getting, the plug came just fall now I'm getting my drafts to put here on the pages of my life.

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